the little wooden gobbet.

Thinking of HY on bed. I want to tell her how I was sorry and grateful to her generosity to me. Last night I found the little wooden gobbet she gave me before I went to the UK. I wish I could have done something about the pain I brought upon her. Why didn't she reply me anymore? just because of her boy friend? May god help, I just want to make some compensation toward my guilt at my early age; she is a very good-hearted person. I simply can't believe she would just let me go. If there's a chance, I will unwaveringly contact her again.

Her voice and words still are swirling around my brain now, "At the very beginning I hate you, I hate you went away irresponsibly." But eventually, she forgives me. I wish could we could be friend. -- it didn't come out. We lost contact. Now HY, I know you will not have a chance, to read my words, but I really tell you that I want to see you again - there's nothing to do with love and whatsoever, I want to compensate, I want to thank you if god allows us to meet again. I wish you all very best in your HKDSE. -- try to get into university... although it would be a hard hurdle... then you'll have a better chance and shape a better off life... Why didn't come out? I could have help you with your english in summer. May be not a lot, may not not much, may be useless, but bestow me the chance.